look at my life how its all falling apart
i want things to get better
i just don't know where to start
every single moment is full of stress
i cant believe this is my life
its one big fucking mess
I'm so disappointed and ashamed
there's nothing to say, no excuse
i have only myself to blame
i do the wrong thing, time and time again
if i can see the errors in my ways now
why couldn't I see it then
If i could just one time, get it right
maybe i wouldn't feel like giving up
maybe id find the strength to fight
i have nothing left to offer
I've been stripped down to nothing,
this is not the life i envisioned,
I never seen this coming.
I am starting to grow old
surely this cant be my legacy,
my story to be told.
I'm trying to keep the faith
but running out of hope
questioning gods good grace
where is he now
I feel abandoned
he says he loves me
but I cant see how.
I cant change the past
I am constantly reminded
judged for what I'm doing now and what I did last
the harder I try to walk that line
the more hardships come my way
but I will not fail this time.