I've been called everything in the book
but "the wrong choice " tho?
that's a new one
and I felt its blow
I know I'm not perfect
far from special in any means
but you'd think there would be someone for me
to love me it seems
it happens every single time
I give everything I have to give
then made out to be the villain
my life's no life I wanna live
I'm tired of the hurtful words
sick of all the pain
I'm in emotional turmoil
I never should have tried again
I'm losing my mind
my newfound hope
feeling like giving up
don't know how to cope
sitting here with tears rolling down
heart empty
growing cold
stupid girl, can't u see
they want u till they get you
then get tired n move on
you're always left confused
wondering what you did wrong
its nothing I did
I'm just meant to be alone
sad and miserable till one-day I'm gone
should have known better
right from the start
don't even try to use my pathetic ass heart
I can't stop replaying those words
I was the wrong choice? I will never forget them
always hear them behind your voice
every day is a struggle
I already feel less than enough
always forcing a smile
can get be pretty tough
especially when u want to cry
I feel like my face is gonna crack
if I start to lose it
I just shake it off n bring it back
keep my feelings bottled up
put em on a shelf
cause truth be told
no one gives a damn how I'm feeling or felt
love is just temporary
now I'm beginning to understand
you cant believe fairy tales
a man is just a man
they will put u down
blame everything on you
would they still do it if they could feel the pain
I wonder if they even have a clue
as I sit here feeling like shit
I know I have to save face
stand up and pretend
like I'm not a fk up n a disgrace
tomorrow u will be sorry
I'm sure you will apologize
just know that I know how u feel
these words were no lie
they may have come from anger
but they arose from somewhere
they are ur true feelings
stupid of me to believe you could actually care
you will miss me when I'm gone
it's always the same
you will wonder where I'm at
and softly whisper my name
I can't figure it out
can't wrap my mind around it
how u can love me one second
then turn around and say such foul shit
intentionally cause me pain
use your tongue as a sword
id rather take a beating
then feel the pain of a word
stuck on repeat
a never-ending loop in my mind
why can't I get it right
just one fkn time
I don't ask for much
no money or fancy things
just to be loved
and enjoy the moments it is supposed to bring
maybe hold my hand
sleep next to me in bed
hold me in ur arms
if I'm lucky a kiss on my forehead
just don't call me names
don't put me down
don't take me for granted
cause I won't always be around!!!