No, I'm not okay
if you could hear my thoughts
you wouldn't believe a word that I say
yeah I say I'm fine
but I'm an emotional wreck
I fantasize about suicide all the time
I don't know how to cope
I'm mentally exhausted
I've lost all hope
I'm completely drained
I'm losing my mind
I'm going insane
life's something I can't quite seem to master
I've ruined everything
just look at this disaster
I don't feel loved
I feel abandoned by everyone
even my father up above
why should I continue to try
it never makes a difference
I wanna scream shout and cry
to cry out for help
but to who?
these r just the cards I've been dealt
those who claim to love me
never really mean it
I'm just unlovable obviously
so I wait on the next person to leave
just get on with it
let me go ahead cry and grieve
I feel like a burden
it not a good feeling
I'm so sick of hurting
I would pray for relief
but god never answers
it's starting to wear down my beliefs
but death is inviting
even a cold grave sounds nice
peace and rest is enticing
I have so much I need to talk about
but no ones here to listen
I guess I will have to just figure shit out