Where did everything go wrong
I seem to be stuck on repeat
Like some sad old country song.

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I'm Tired of this rat race

Where I always seem to finish last

I'm always left feeling like a disgrace.

1 step forward and 3 steps back
I  never quite get ahead
Who wants to live like that?

normal is all I want to be
Do mundane, run of the mill, everyday things
But I guess God has other plans for me.

I walk around constantly confused
Giving everyone, and everything my all
But still, all I ever get is used.

I'm tired and worn out
My heart and brain have all but given up
My spirit is gone, Plagued and ruined by disappointment & doubt.

I can't blame people for walking away
How could I?
If I had a choice, I would not stay.

Sometimes I worry, others I'm plain damn scared
Of what I might do if things don't change
I wish I just had one person that actually cared.

Am I asking too much
I just want to be loved
a little Touching, holding hands, kissing and such.

Some days are just worse than others,
Today for instance
I don't know how I will survive another