FML

Look at my life how it's all falling apart
I want things to get better
I just don't know where to start
every single moment is full of stress
I can't believe this is my life
it's one big fucking mess
I'm so disappointed and ashamed
there's nothing to say, no excuse
I only have myself to blame
I do the wrong thing, time and time again  
if i see the errors in my ways now
 why couldn't I see it back then
If I could just one time, get it right
maybe I wouldn't feel like giving up
maybe id find the strength to fight
I have nothing left to offer
I've been stripped down to nothing,
this is not the life I envisioned,
I would have never seen this coming.
a failure in every aspect
down bad in every way
picture of a person I could never respect
today marks my birth 37 yrs ago
a mistake I'm still paying for
almost 40 with nothing to show
I'm sick of everyone
I hate this life I'm living
I'm fed up I'm just done
I wanna run away
start over and try again
but I'm forced to stay
stuck in this hell
a revolving door, a black hole
where friend or foe I'm unable to tell
no longer own my soul
the devil got it long ago
when I twirled my first bowl
too many mistakes to count
a vast array of fuck ups
an astronomical overwhelming amount